Hello, again!!!! You may have read my last blog which I felt so honoured to be able to share, it was my story about my sudden endometriosis diagnosis and our fertility journey.
I'm so happy to be able to share a new blog update and let you know that we finally have news of our rainbow baby due August 2021.
By the time our bubba boy is born, our journey will have almost spread over 5 years. In that time there was an endometriosis diagnosis, miscarriage, skin cancer diagnosis and more!
I remember other brave women telling me about their journey and longing for a child spanning over 5 and 7 years. I would think "WOW, 5 Years is an awfully long time".
I soon came to realise although the days feel long, those years fly by.
You attend baby shower after baby shower, first birthdays, read pregnancy announcement after pregnancy announcement, and it just feels like your time will never come. I truly did front up with an open and brave heart each and everyday knowing that what ever would be, would be. I was truly willing to accept whatever outcome was in store for us as a family.
When we FINALLY got our positive pregnancy test result, there was no cute announcement to my husband. It was literally running into him asleep in bed at 6am on a Saturday and me holding the wee ridden stick up saying "OH MY GOSH ELIAS, LOOK".
I found healing during our journey by sharing my story often, being an open book and really sitting into how I was feeling. If I was sad, I'd let myself feel sad. If I was angry, I'd use that anger in a constructive way.
I delved into a solid year and a half of Crossfit at Crossfit 4551 in Caloundra and just focused my time and energy into that. Building myself up mentally and physically. For almost a year I didn't even think about our fertility journey. For the first time in a long time I was just purely focused on me and bettering me. I still train there now under the careful eye of my coaches taking it easy and listening to my body. If anything it's more so for the mental benefits.
Just like our journey to conception hadn't been easy, our journey during pregnancy hasn't been without it's small hiccups. A pretty big bleed early on in the pregnancy was enough to scare the beejeezuz out of us. But all ended okay on that front and our little rainbow baby is definitely a fighter.
For now we have 15 weeks to go before we get to meet our beautiful bubba boy. My first few months were filled with daily anxiety, but I feel like I'm slowly starting to settle in and enjoy the "now".
My hope is ALWAYS for other women and couples to hear my story. Know that I feel and felt everything you feel and have felt. The days felt long. So so long, and the years incredibly quick. I hope and pray that you have the strength to carry on and fight! Fight for you! Fight for YOUR happiness but also for your future, whatever that may look like.
If I've learnt anything it's that we really don't have much control over what happens to us, but we do have control over how we react to what happens to us. I hope you choose joy where you can and can find comfort in knowing you're not alone.